Kelly's Journal

Long time no post
Hey guys!
I know you all were worried that I had fallen off the face of the earth, but I'm still here :-)

I just got back from a road trip to Ohio with Betsy. Andy and his team made it to cross country DIII Nationals, so we went down there to watch. I took the day off Friday, and we left around 8:30am. It was our first road trip together and it actually went pretty well. There weren't really any crazy stories from the trip, and we got along for the most part. Andy was kind of bummed because he wasn't an All-American, but his team finished fourth so they all got trophies for that. The worst part about the whole trip was that we had to come home Saturday after the awards because Betsy was racing in Rochester today.

My love life is dead and buried. Sigh... No luck there.

I still LOVE my new job, although I'm still not sure how I like my new co-worker Erin. Some days we get along and some days it just feels like we're butting heads all day. I was kind of sad that Stephanie (the lead teacher) got switched to Toddler 1 and that I'm with Tina now (in Pre-school). But Tina has been good.

Other than that, there really isn't a whole bunch to tell. My running streak is still intact, despite the five days we spent without power in October. I'm closing in on 1400 days, in about two weeks. That storm we had back on October 13th was really wild. Thursday the 12th it was really snowing good when I drove home, so I got my mom to head up to the track to run with me before it got worse. On our way home we started to see limbs down in the road, and then the rest of that night was just insane! It sounded like a war outside with all the branches rolling off the roof and the trees all cracking. The worse part was when the power line got pulled off the house. That was scary. Anyway, it was quite the mess we had to clean up but we got lucky and there was no major damage to any of our cars or the house. I'll have to post some pictures when I finally get around to learning how to do that, because it really was unbelievable. We had at least 20 inches of snow or more.

Anyway, that's pretty much it... I actually kind of forgot that I even had livejournal, but I finally got around to checking e-mail today (by the way, it was all junk mail :-P ), and someone had requested to change my password, so I figured it was about time to write.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Christmas songs already :-)

Long time no entry...go figure....but for the first time in awhile things are going excellently for me :-)

I FINALLY got a new job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Starting May 1st I'm going to be an assistant in either a 3-year old or infant room at a daycare. I'm psyched!!!! I gave my notice to the hotel last Thursday, and that was kind of weird and awkward. I was so nervous about telling them at the hotel that I was done. I didn't really know what to say to Lynn the rest of the day after I told her I was leaving. And Elaine was really sad. It's going to be strange not to see her at work, since I've been working with her for almost seven years now. But I'm super-excited about the new job. I went out and bought new pants and sneakers for it already :-) I'm going in next week to pick up my paperwork so I can get it all filled out.

My shirt that I ordered like forever long ago finally got here on Friday, so more good news :-)

My cousin Nicole had her baby, Natalee on Thursday.

Torty had another batch of kittens :-( Thankfully, they aren't around yet. Mom and dad said that this crew has to go to the SPCA because we are definitely WAY over our limit of felines in the house. (There's nine)(Kelly B ~ you would probably die if you tried to come in my house for more than five minutes.)

My dad's surprise party for his b-day went off without a hitch, so that was good. He turned fifty last Thursday, so Betsy and I had all his sisters and their families over for a surprise party for him. I was happy because he was actually truly surprised. He hates being the center of attention, but he even told my mom that that was the first time anyone had ever had a party just for him. So that made me feel good. And he really enjoyed himself.

A few more weeks and Betsy will be all graduated with her Masters. Then she'll be back here for awhile too. And Andy is also coming for the summer again, last I knew. Oh joy :-P He scares the shit out of the cats, so I don't know how glad I'm gonna be to have him here.

Anyway, that's about it for now.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Jimmy Buffet ~ Escape

Forever and a year.........
So hi there. Haven't really felt it necessay to post in forever because quite frankly, I bore myself, so why should I subject all of you to that. Not much has changed since my last post anyway. Valentine's Day sucks. I HATE being alone :-( And the birthday was pretty lame too despite my sister's efforts to keep me in a good mood. At least this year I wasn't be stood up by dumba$$. Speaking of, it's been a year since that all went to hell. Michelle called and I chatted with her for awhile, and then Susan called. I thought I was doing well getting over the whole Sean issue, but apparently I'm not so good. I went to clean out one of my dresser drawers today and in the bottom of it I found the balloon he gave me on our very first date. He had tied hockey tickets to the string of it. I started to cry when I pulled it out. Then I promptly grabbed my scissors and cut it into about a thousand pieces. I haven't updated in so long that when I tried to sign on it wouldn't let me until I changed my password because apparently there was a freeze on my account. Anyway, what's new...still doing the running streak. I'm well over 1100 days now. So at least that's something. Michelle came over last night. We did dinner at Applebees and then watched movies all night. Rent, Napoleon Dynamite, and 2Gether. I got Mandy's wedding invitation today :-) I've been reading a lot. Most recently Stephen King - Everything's Eventual...didn't know if I would like the whole short story thing, but it's cool. Anyway, this is about it for now. The cat keeps trying to catch the cursor while I'm typing and it's getting old fast. Later.

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Sheryl Crow

I finally made it to day 1000 in my consecutive days running streak!!!!!!!! Woohoo!!

I'm really sad today though. It's like I like feeling miserable or something. I checked his profile and he added "I love you sunshine". What right does he have to be happy when he treated me like shit and made me so miserable...arghhhh!!! I hope he gets burned bad, soon. I need to stop this already.

Anyways...other than that things are good here. I started shopping for mom and Betsy's birthdays. Which pretty much means that in the next two weeks the Christmas shopping will begin. :-)

I have tomorrow off from work, so that's a good thing.

blah....

I'm boring. I really don't have too much to write about.

I'm psyched cuz Nike Club Nationals for cross country is right in Rochester this year. So of course I'm going. Betsy's boy, Andy, is running in it.

That's about all.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: You Oughta Know ~ Alanis Morrisette

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Seven months of silence. Then Thursday I get an IM from the bastard. We talked for an hour and a half. It kind of annoyed me because he was just being the way he used to be. Saying everything he thought I'd want to hear. Then he had the nerve to ask about the stupid chainsaw. So that was the real reason he talked to me. His icon said "Taken", so I asked him if he was with someone and he told me no.

Flash to today. Thankfully, my dad wasn't home early enough, so I stayed home to baby-sit while mom and Betsy went to the cross country meet. Betsy calls from the meet and tells me that he's up there...with the new girlfriend. That f*cking jerk!!!!! In a way I wish I would have been there so I could've introduced myself to her, and told her that I heard she didn't exist. Or at the very least I could've warned her about him. FYI, my sister and mom blew him off, but Coach B was talking to him, and her name was Colby. Yes, that's the slut who was all up in our shit way back the first year we were dating. So now I doubt that I was ever even in a truly monogomous relationship. Nice huh.

Anyway, sorry to vent. Feeling very lonely, frustrated, pissed off and sad tonight. To top it off, Andy showed up to surprise Betsy for their year and a half anniversary. Why couldn't I have dated a nice guy like that?

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Anything by Sarah McLachlan

Things are going peachy here. I actually got to hang out with Holly and Pete yesterday. It was nice. We went for a walk in Akron Falls Park, then hung out at Pete's for awhile, then came to my house and got a Tony's pizza. It was very relaxing.

Not too much has been going on. I'm really trying to find a new job. I'm just sick of everything at the moment and I'm ready for a change.

The running streak is still going. I'm over 960 days now so that makes me happy. My 1000th day will be on October 26th, so send me presents :-) jk

I want to hang out with Susan. I always see her car come and go, but I never see her..lol.. Unless I'm yelling to her from the window :-)

So it's been like 42 million years since I've updated and I'm surprised my journal hasn't been cancelled! I actually forgot my new password for a few minutes there and thought I wasn't even going to get on.

First off, everyone seems like they're getting married so congratulations to Holly, Katie, Rachelle, Erica, Jill, Jen, and Mandy (I hope I didn't forget anyone!). I'm so excited for all of you! :-) You're all going to be such beautiful brides! :-)

I finally got to hang out with the lovely Jen Twitchell last week!!! We haven't seen eachother in eons, so it was fun to catch up. And she picked out the raddest dress ever to wear to Ed's wedding. I'm so glad that things are working out with her and Tom.

I had an interview for a teacher aide position at an elementary school near here. I didn't get it, but at least I got a little more interview experience under my belt, so that's a plus. I'm debating going back to school again for pre-k teaching...I just don't know. I'm so confused.

I'm trying to get Dan Volleweiler up to Western New York :-) It would be awesome if he lived up here. We decided that we're getting an apartment if he moves up here.

Work is really pissing me off lately. Everyone fun quit except for Bridgette, so it pretty much sucks now. The only good thing is that I got a raise. Woohoo.

Arrghh...the parents need me so I'll continue this update later....

Current Music: Trees - Marty Casey

4 months later...
I'm so dramatic.

Last Wednesday I went grocery shopping to Tops and Wal-Mart with my mom, as per our usual routine. As we're walking across the parking lot to the entrance of Wal-Mart, who should drive by but Sean. I felt absolutely sick. I just wanted to totally ignore him. But then he practically stuck his head out the window and stared at us. So what does my wonderful mother proceed to do but wave at him. The whole thing was just awkward. Partly because I just wanted to ignore the situation and him, and partly because a large part of me just wanted to run over and beat the shit out of him and tell him exactly how he made me feel, and what a huge piece of crap (I'll put that nicely for now) he is. My only consolation was that at least he was alone. I'm still just sad about the way things ended. It would've been nice if it could've been on good terms, so we could at least still be talking. But instead it was just like a switch shut off. I would like to know what I did so wrong. I think it's the lack of closure that's killing me.

{And I apologize for mentioning all this garbage again. I really would just like to forget about him..Thank you for bearing with me}

I miss being in a relationship. I miss all the little coupley things. I miss having an implied date on Friday night, and getting random phone call during the day just to here how much "he" cares or misses me. Sigh.

I totally agree with Kelly B. My life is not at all what I was hoping it would be at 24. I was so thinking that I'd be engaged by the end of the summer, until all the shit hit the fan. And I want to move out so bad it isn't funny. Hopefully that will happen this fall if I can save up.

Anyways, in other news...

We have a momma cat (Torty) who has three babies in our backyard. So now we have some outside cats....just what we needed. They're pretty wild though. The momma is the only one that you can really pet. There's a black kitten (Anakin) that will let you touch it while it's eating, but that's as far as it goes. The other two just spit at you.

Michelle, Dan, and I are going camping together in two weeks :-) We're going to Fillmore Glen, which is in the Ithaca/ Cortland area. We're only going for a weekend but I'm psyched. Lots of s'mores and hiking!

I saw Chad randomly about two weeks ago. It was nice. He was baby-sitting for a friend in the area so he stopped over for awhile. It was good to catch up with him.

Work is busy as hell now :(~

I guess things really haven't changed that much for me since my last update. I've been reading V.C. Andrews again lately. But mostly I'm addicted to my running magazines. My streak is over 880 days now. I've been trying to up my mileage the last few weeks. I'd like to drop about 10 pounds, so I'm thinking that I may try to integrate some cross training. I want to get back into rollerblading again because I used to love it. I would also like to start doing "crunch fest" every night. But that's gonna be harder to stick to. My mom and I decided that when NBC starts their next edition of Biggest Loser, we're going to diet together too, and start working out hardcore.

Alright, I guess that's about it for now.

Jen - I miss you! I tried to call the other day but it was busy. I wanna hang out with you and Tom :-)

Kelly B - I wish we lived closer together so we could go out and find ourselves some nice boys.

Susan - We need to go to some movies!!!!!

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes

So it's been forever and 22 years since I've updated, but the truth is, I haven't really had much to update about anyway. However, I did promise Jen a week ago that I would update because she told me to, so here goes...

I got to see Amanda the weekend of Mother's Day. It was nice. I haven't seen her in probably close to 5 years or more. We did dinner at Applebees and just caught up on everything that's been going on with eachother. I got to see her pictures of her Sean, and all that jazz :-)

I got to hang out with JEN :-) :-) :-) That was the best because it came totally out of the blue. We haven't seen eachother in forever either. We chatted and looked at pics and helped Alex play Donkey Kong. It was sweet :-) Then we hunted down my parents at Wal-Mart, because I needed to get to Wal-Mart and get the American Idol cd..We need to hang out again soon Miss Twitchell!

I hung out with Susan...and we saw Episode 3!!!! I know I'm going to sound like a big dork, but I don't care. I love Star Wars and always have and I'm not ashamed to admit it. I'm also not ashamed to admit that eventhough I'm 24 I'm still going to Burger King to collect the toys :-P The movie was awesome, and I can't wait for the dvd to come out. Last night Susan came over and we played Star Wars Trivial Pursuit. Oh, and did I forget to mention that I got her Star Wars Monopoly for her birthday, and we played that last week too?

Other news..

My aunt is doing really well for the moment. She's getting chemo once a week, and radiation five days a week. Knock on wood, so far she hasn't really been too sick from the treatments, just tired. They're hoping to shrink the spots on her lungs so they can operate.

We have kittens...yes kittens at my house, who could imagine that? Another one of the stupid lady that lives at the horse farm nextdoor's cats wandered down and had kittens at my house. They are so cute! Luckily, we think we have homes for all but one of them.

Random...

Here's one for the..I never thought I'd do this category...

Susan and I chased a pig around last week. Yes, only in Akron could you find two girls in their early twenties chasing a fat old potbelly pig down the street. The stupid lady that lives at the horse farm nextdoor apparently doesn't worry about keeping her pig in a pen, because it likes to come down and visit us. Susan and I followed it around our neighborhood for about 45 minutes, trying to make sure it didn't get hit by a car. My dad tried to get ahold of the owner, but she wasn't home. Lovely. Anyway, it finally did get back to the farm. However, it was back down here again yesterday. Fun times.

Alex graduated from pre-school! It was so freaking adorable! I got to see pictures of him in his little cap and gown. He's excited about going to the "big school" next year.

American Idol: Can I just say how upset I am that both Scott and Anthony made it farther than Constatine? I loved him! However, I do actually think that for once the strongest three made it to the top three, and I love both Bo and Carrie so I'll be happy no matter who wins.

That pretty much sums it up for now. Still haven't heard a word from the shithead in Barker so I don't plan on ever communicating with him again. So now I'm going to start trying to find a new job, and get my life going the way I want it to be.

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Nadia Turner - You Don't Have To Say You Love Me

The last 3 years were just pretend....
Life sucks.

So yeah..lots of drama.

Two months ago, a certain boyfriend that will never be mentioned again after today, told me that his dad was in an accident in Ohio, and that he spent two weeks in Ohio with his dad. He then proceeded to stand me up on my birthday. Real nice huh? So we broke up.

Then he said that he wanted us back together to give it another shot. So we started going out. In the period of a month I saw him twice. He has ignored my phone calls for the last week. So I asked Betsy to call his house to see what was up tonight. She talked to his mom. His mom said that he was in FL. Then Betsy asked how his dad was doing. Turns out...his dad was never in an accident to begin with. Super...

So I pretty much wasted three years of my life on a lying bastard. I hate him. End of story.

Current Mood: depressed

This week pretty much sucked. So Valentine's Day Sean and I talked on the phone, and he told me that he would come over the next day for the b-day. He also tells me that his mom and brother went back to Ohio. The next day when my mom and I are running, a car passes us and it looks like his mom waving to me. He never shows up and never calls. Wednesday comes and he doesn't call. Thursday comes and still no phone call. Friday night...and you guessed it...still no phone call. So I'm getting pissed. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm so frustrated that I just can't stand it. I would just like to know once and for all if we're broke up or together or whatever the hell we are anymore!!!!!

Thank you Jen for your visit on Tuesday. You made me feel much better when I wasn't in such a great mood. I love you! You're the bestest!

Susan - the birthday post rocked :-) Major props to you

I guess I'm gonna try to go to bed. I tried to fall asleep at 9:30, but I'm so worked up that sleep just isn't happening. God I wish I was at Geneseo right now. Because at times like this it would be nice to be able to walk down to the "love shack" and see who else was still up to hang out with. If Dan were around, I would probably try to con him into a run. If the Genese-hoes were around, I'd have us up to Wegmann getting some munches to dissect the situation with. I miss you guys so much!

I ran a race yesterday...first one in about 6 months. I was nervous, but ended up doing not too shabby. I ran a PR (24:45), and ended up getting second in my age group.

That's pretty much the highlight since my last entry.

Haven't heard from Sean in almost 4 days now, so I started to give up hope about things going back to normal. It sucks. I go through phases, mostly at night when I'm getting ready for bed. Half the time I'm so pissed off that I want to rip him new one if he calls, and the other half I'm crying my eyes out because I miss him, and I hate the way he's treating me right now. I just don't know anymore. I'm so confused. I understand that his dad is in the hospital, but he made a big deal about having his cell phone so he'd be in contact with me, and then only called me once in the past week >:-(

And to top things off, Valentine's Day is in a week. I wonder if I even have a Valentine anymore :-( I just wish I knew what the hell was going on.

Going down to Cortland with my parents next weekend because my sister is running at Cornell. I was contemplating staying home and cooking a nice romantic dinner for a certain someone, but now I've just said screw it. I'd rather see Betsy right now than him anyway...(and we've entered an angry phase...)

I'm getting really depressed because I'm going to be 24 soon, and all I can think of is that by the time my mother was 24 she was married and had 2 kids...I'm starting to feel like I'm never gonna get out of here.

Oh, if any of you were wondering...Sammy went to the vets and the kitty leukemia test was negative (thankfully)...so that was a huge relief. Now he's on antibiotics for another few days, but he's doing good.

Wow, I just read through this and I'm doing an awful lot of whining and moping tonight. Sorry about that...

On a positive note:

Holly called me the other day! It was so good to hear from her because we haven't talked since August because she's been so busy with rotations. She and Pete have decided that they are getting married in Hawaii in July 2006. I'm excited for them..they're so cute together!

I get to see Kelly B in less that 2 weeks! :-)

Anyway..that's about it for now folks. I gotta get my butt over to the rockin' Village Board meeting..woohoo

Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: Michelle Branch - "Good-bye To You"

Another Friday night, and my boyfriend is mysteriously MIA again.

Go figure.

I thought the whole point of evaluating things in two weeks was that we'd spend time together and see how we felt. I didn't realize that I'd see him maybe once a week if I was lucky. I thought we were actually going to talk about things, and try to get things back to the way they used to be.

Grrr...so frustrating!

And on top of that, I'm kind of nervous because the stray Siamese...aka Sammy...that we are currently letting being an indoor/outdoor kitty at our house due to the cold weather, might be sick. I'm hoping that it's nothing serious. Because if it's kitty leukemia then I even know how I'm going to deal with that. So please keep your fingers crossed. We're calling the vet for him next week if he doesn't seem any better.

My sister is at a track meet this weekend. I kind of wish I was making the trek to go watch her. It's in Saint Lawrence, so it's far, but not that far away. I'm signed up for a road race on Super Bowl Sunday. What the hell was I thinking?

Kelly B ~ Are you still coming up here in February? Let me know when so I can get a day off to come visit you in Geneseo :-)

Jen ~ If you aren't doing anything this weekend, do you want to get together?

Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Jerry Maguire soundtrack

Haven't updated in a couple weeks, so I'm sure you're all dying to know what I've been up to... here's the run-down:

1. Sean and I broke up...for all of three hours. But it was very dramatic, because it happened three days before our three year anniversary. He called me that night, and we talked for a few hours and got things straightened out. We're still not great, but we're going good again, so that's a plus.

2. Christmas ~ Received the following:
Rainbow Brite Saves Christmas book - courtesy of my sister :-)
Talking Charlie Brown - courtesy of my sister :-)
Cabbage Patch Kid - from my parents...this may seem weird, but it was my most
exciting gift. I used to get one every year from my grandma, until they
stopped making them, so I was desperately in need on one now that they
came out again!
Rainbow Brite ornament - from my grandparents...they rock!
various clothing from Aeropostale
a bunch of other stuff that I'm too tired to list right now

3. Hung out with Jen and Kara. I was so excited to see her after over a year! I miss
having her nearby because we definitely don't see enough of eachother. We went to
Network Video to try and find Susan and Beth, but were unsuccessful, so we ended up
going to Mazia's for pizza and wings....yum!

4. Hit over 700 days on my running streak...woohoo! :-D

5. Read 3 Nicholas Sparks books, and a new Danielle Steel

6. Hung out with Susan! We watched SNL the best of Adam Sandler, and I thought I was
going to die laughing.

That's pretty much about it. I'm kind of boring actually. Sean is sick with the flu, so I haven't seen him in forever. I told him that I didn't really want to see him until he was better anyway though, because I don't want to get sick, or get Alex, Zach, or (baby) Sean sick now that they're all finally healthy again.

Debating going to Cortland this weekend, but thinking I might pass if I can convince Dan and/or Mich to come visit.

Kelly B...I definitely want to see you when you come up in February!!! Just tell me when, so I can take a day off and meet you somewhere. I think Stacy would fall over if walked into the Roemer House together to visit :-)

Kind of looking for a new job. Not very successful yet. But things may be changing soon. My boss at the paper is looking to do some stuff differently, and if he does, then I'll be doing a ton more with the paper...so keep your fingers crossed for me.

Random entry....
So yeah, again, it's been awhile since the last update...

Things have been busy here. Still working both jobs. Still not particularly crazy about either one. The 27th was my sister's birthday, so she was home for a long weekend because it was Thanksgiving "break" from her school. This may sound lame, but my sister is like my best friend lately. She's pretty much the only person besides Sean that I talk to on a regular basis and feel like I can rely on. I definitely appreciate her way more now than I ever did before.

My mom's birthday was the 4th. We were supposed to go to Cortland to watch Betsy at a track meet, but my dad got sick. So instead, we went Christmas shopping and had lunch at Red Lobster. YUM!

The 6th was Dan the Man's birthday. He is awesome. It was so good to talk to him. I think we could carry on a conversation about pretty much anything. He's going to try to come visit when he's on break in a few weeks, so I'm crossing my fingers that it works out.

I've been feeling really lonely lately...big surprise. I have no life. :-P

I took the day off of work tomorrow so I can hang out at the house and baby-sit for my mom while she goes to the dentist. It shouldn't be bad though. The two older ones are all psyched about Christmas already, so they've been watching all their Christmas movies, and Sean (the baby) is usually pretty well behaved.

Today was day 678 in the running streak. My mom and I did 7 miles :-)
It's pathetic, but running is pretty much the only thing I look forward to anymore.

Things are going alright with Sean and I, I guess. Now he's going to be in school until May though..boo hiss. That means that after he graduates, he's going to want to work for a few months to save up some money before we start even thinking about looking at apartments :-( I don't know...things with us seemed to have fizzled out. All we ever do is hang out with the kids at my house, because they all attack him when he comes in the door, or else play Nintendo. Our routine never varies. The only thing we occasionally throw in there is a trip to McDonald's.

I guess that's enough whining for now...

Jen - You should call me because I still have yet to see you since you've been back from Carolina and I miss you!

Susan - You should call me or come over because you live about 15 feet away and I haven't seen you in over a month...I'm going through Star Wars trivial pursuit withdrawal!

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: I Want A Hippopotamus for Christmas.....

Unhappy about the outcome of the election, so have been in kind of state of depression since then.

Not a whole lot going on.

Still lonely. I keep dreaming about everyone I knew in highschool, and keep getting sad because I'm not really in touch with any of them anymore.

Sean has been being wonderful lately. We've been spending more time together. However, we made plans to go on our first real date in like over a month two weeks ago. We pull out of my driveway, get a quarter of a mile down the road, and Sean gets a flat. So we proceed back to my house, have my dad pump up the tire, and drive to Dunn Tire, which is where we spent the majority of our "date". Afterwards we went to Arby's, then Wal-Mart so I could by Shrek 2, came home and watched Shrek 2, and called it a night. Romantic huh?

This past weekend I went to St. Lawrence/ Cortland with my mom to go with Betsy to watch Andy run at regionals. He did awesome and qualified for Nationals. When I got home, I discovered that my dad had re-done my room for me!! Instead of being blue with a blue rug, it's green with tan carpeting. It looks amazing! Everyone should be jealous of my GREEN room :-) I love it!

Have plans with Susan tonight, so excited about that..she rocks!

Since writing in this last I've read 3 more Danielle Steel's and the first four Harry Potter book. I've also read Bridget Jones's Diary, and am halfway through the sequel. I can't wait for the board meeting to get over with tonight so that I can read more of it!

Work sucks. My favorite co-worker has a hyernia, so will be out of work for an indefinite amount of time :-(

I'm getting very worried about Jon. It's been over 2 months since I've talked to him, and he hasn't been answering his phone or returning my voicemails. Not that we were really talking on a regular basis anymore, but if one or the other of us left a voicemail, we were good about getting back to the other within the next day or so. I hope everything is okay with him.

That's pretty much all she wrote...

Current Mood: blah

Happy Hallmark Holiday everyone...cause that's essentially what Sweetest Day is.

Things have been going extremely smoothly between Sean and I lately. After a few very up and down weeks where I thought a break up was inevitable..seriously.

Last weekend I was flipping out because I couldn't get ahold of him from 6pm on Friday until after work on Monday. When I got home from work I had a voicemail from him that he left Monday morning, apologizing for not calling me. He had been in Corning all weekend because his grandma passed away :-( I proceeded to feel like the biggest ass in the world for feeling so upset that I couldn't get ahold of him. The funeral was Wednesday, but I had work so I couldn't go back down to Corning with him for it. He seems to be doing okay though.

We spent our first Friday together in forever and a year last night. It was nice. We went to Wendy's for chicken nuggets and then to my house to snuggle and watch Halloween.

***I'm going to vent about the upcoming election for a moment here, and I'm just warning you that if you are a Bush fan, you probably don't want to read this***

I am so sick of George W. Bush! I hate what he has done to this country! I hate how he has allowed big business to basically prosper, while having normal middle class working people suffer! I hate that he allows businesses that create air pollution to just pay yearly fine instead of making them comply with regulations. I hate that he got us into this stupid war, and has basically given us more enemies than allies now. I hate that he has lost $7 TRILLION dollars (because when Clinton was in office we were $2 trillion ahead, and now we're $5 trillion in debt). And I hate that he continues to lie to Americans. I hate how during the debates he looked bored every time John Kerry was speaking.

I am seriously thinking of moving out of the country if George is elected again.

***end of vent session***

In other news, I've started Christmas shopping, barely. Mostly by that I mean that I've picked stuff out for my mom to get me for Christmas while I was with her, although I did pick up a few small things for other people.

I love that Rainbow Brite is coming back :-) I will DIE if I don't get that ornament :-)

I've become obsessed with Danielle Steel again. I know, I'm a sap. I should probably find different reading material, but quite frankly, I don't want to! My reading material of the moment consists of her books, and Runner's World magazine. I'm proud though, in the past four weeks, I've read four of her books. Not too shabby considering that I do most of my reading solely on the weekends.

Okay, I've about hit my limit.

Jen~ I lost the paper with your address and phone number! Can you send it again!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Halloween theme

So Sean and I had our biggest fight ever on Friday night, which happened to be the first Friday night we were getting to spend together in about a month. There was lots of yelling and just driving around, but now things are back to normal.

Work sucks. I only got three days last week :-P. And Christina and I got stuck doing the shit job on Friday, detail cleaning all the rooms that had had their rugs cleaned.

I finally got to hang out with the fabulous Susan Morris! We played Star Wars Trivial Pursuit and it was awesome!!!! We can't wait for my copies of the trilogy to arrive. Until they do, we've been amusing ourselves with lots of cheesey stuff, like Little Nicky, and Boys and Girls. We tried to watch My Boss's Daughter, but it was horrible, and we only made it through about 20 minutes.

Sunday was hectic. We went to Cortland yet again. To drop off a fridge for Betsy and Andy.

So things with Sean and I have finally calmed down for the moment, which is a very good thing. I need to stop worrying everytime I don't get to see him, and he needs to realize that a phone call once in awhile would be nice.

I spent a good chunk of the weekend in Cortland and Oneonta. We had to take Betsy her car, and Andy was running in a meet in Oneonta. Sine they let open individuals race, Betsy decided to run too. It was actually pretty funny, because it had rained so much that the river near the course was flooding, so they were actually changing the course for the race, while the race was going on. Andy got second in his race, and Betsy got third in hers.

I decided that I like Cortland alot. However, I don't think I could ever live there, because according to my sister, they don't like to plow the streets very well in the winter.

It was really good to see my sister for awhile though. Now that's she's back in Cortland, I really miss her. I knew that would happen though, because that's just the way things work.

My mom took me on a massive run this morning/afternoon. We went 9 1/2 miles, mostly on the bike path. It was awesome! It felt so good to just go out and do a distance day for once!

I'm getting in the mood to do a road race soon....

Current Music: Tangled Up In Me ~ Skye Sweetnum...cheesey, I know!

I'm fed up with my life. I feel like it's going nowhere.

I hate the fact that I've been out of college for a year and a half and still live at home.

I hate the fact that my main source of income is the stupid summer job that I had all through college.

I hate that fact that I feel like things with Sean are dead in the water. I still love him to death, but sometimes I feel like our relationship has hit it's peak. I think he's afraid of commitment, whereas I'm ready to settle down.

I'm just done.
I don't even want to deal anymore.

Okay so things could definitely be worse, but I haven't exactly been in the mood to look on the bright side of things lately.

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